ONLY Good Vibes PLEASE
Hola. So something I have learned about myself is that I LOVE to write, it is just freeing to me. I mostly write to vent. Never planning on posting anything. Just letting steam off, but I decided I wanted to create a new blog. The title sounds negative but that's the point. Life is hard. It is MUCH easier to focus on the negative and see everything that is going wrong than to just BE HAPPY.
I don't want to sound depressed but lately life has sucked. But honestly, it is my own fault. I think I just ruined the best thing I ever had because I was too focused on the possibilities of it not working out to focus and enjoy the moments that could have made me so happy.
That is why I started this new "Today was NOT my day" blog. To show that life is unfair. The days are not always fun or go as planned, but that doesn't mean that we cannot enjoy them still.
I recently returned from serving an LDS mission in Argentina. The 18 months spent there were hands down, thus far, the greatest months of my 21 years of life. But even then, not every day was MY day. Something I did in each email home or even in my personal journal was I would write "Poppies" of the week. This idea came from my Great Grandpa, Poppy! He taught my mom, who taught me that there is something to be thankful for every day. That we should never go to bed mad. That a daily must is LOOKING for the good. Counting our blessing and the "poppies" as they grow.
Why do I emphasize looking, because for me it is a constant battle. I have to actively look for the good.
I had quite the wake up call the other day. I was talking to a friend and I realized how sad I have been lately. How hurt I feel inside. How anxious I feel. How all I can focus on are the negative things.
WOW, I thought. That is NOT me. I live to laugh. I thrive off others happiness. I can't help but smile. But for some reason, that me that I just describe is lost.
This is me trying to find her. This blog is my concise effort to BE HAPPY. to live life. Something I did daily on my mission was every morning (at least that was my goal) I would get up and make a list of 10 things I felt grateful for in that moment. I noticed the items ranged from silly little things like clouds to soccer or more important things like prayer to people who had impacted my day.
This made me realize that sometimes we are looking for it to be "our day". Wanting for something big to happen or for us to finally cross everything off our to do list. To feel like we have accomplished something or whatever. But maybe what we should be looking for are the small things. The little moments that lead up to the big ones.
The WOW I found a cute little yellow house to live in down the hall from my sister even though I procrastinated and should be homeless right now or running into people from your mission because you drank too much water and had to pee before leaving Sundance. Or even a sushi date with your best friend who knew you were having a bad day, or my all time favorite of this week, a loonngg vent session sitting in a parked jeep with your cousins.
Really it is whatever makes you feel good, alive and happy. Life is TOO short to be sad. To worry about things you cannot control. LOOK for the good.
Stay positive, you are doing great sweetie!
I don't want to sound depressed but lately life has sucked. But honestly, it is my own fault. I think I just ruined the best thing I ever had because I was too focused on the possibilities of it not working out to focus and enjoy the moments that could have made me so happy.
That is why I started this new "Today was NOT my day" blog. To show that life is unfair. The days are not always fun or go as planned, but that doesn't mean that we cannot enjoy them still.
I recently returned from serving an LDS mission in Argentina. The 18 months spent there were hands down, thus far, the greatest months of my 21 years of life. But even then, not every day was MY day. Something I did in each email home or even in my personal journal was I would write "Poppies" of the week. This idea came from my Great Grandpa, Poppy! He taught my mom, who taught me that there is something to be thankful for every day. That we should never go to bed mad. That a daily must is LOOKING for the good. Counting our blessing and the "poppies" as they grow.
Why do I emphasize looking, because for me it is a constant battle. I have to actively look for the good.
I had quite the wake up call the other day. I was talking to a friend and I realized how sad I have been lately. How hurt I feel inside. How anxious I feel. How all I can focus on are the negative things.
WOW, I thought. That is NOT me. I live to laugh. I thrive off others happiness. I can't help but smile. But for some reason, that me that I just describe is lost.
This is me trying to find her. This blog is my concise effort to BE HAPPY. to live life. Something I did daily on my mission was every morning (at least that was my goal) I would get up and make a list of 10 things I felt grateful for in that moment. I noticed the items ranged from silly little things like clouds to soccer or more important things like prayer to people who had impacted my day.
This made me realize that sometimes we are looking for it to be "our day". Wanting for something big to happen or for us to finally cross everything off our to do list. To feel like we have accomplished something or whatever. But maybe what we should be looking for are the small things. The little moments that lead up to the big ones.
The WOW I found a cute little yellow house to live in down the hall from my sister even though I procrastinated and should be homeless right now or running into people from your mission because you drank too much water and had to pee before leaving Sundance. Or even a sushi date with your best friend who knew you were having a bad day, or my all time favorite of this week, a loonngg vent session sitting in a parked jeep with your cousins.
Really it is whatever makes you feel good, alive and happy. Life is TOO short to be sad. To worry about things you cannot control. LOOK for the good.
Stay positive, you are doing great sweetie!
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